Week 20. Weight lost this week: +3 Weight loss in total 17.5
Soooooo this was a bit of a bummer. I knew I had a bad week and was expecting a gain just not a whopping THREE pounds of gain. I was totally completely bummed out at the meeting. I had to keep reminding myself that I did it to myself and to shake it off. In reality I was devistated and although I knew I was eating chocolate (thank you Halloween candy and no willpower) and not eating healthy meals (goodbye burned Le Creuset pan HELLOOOOO chinese takeaway!) you still, or at least I still have the ability to delude myself. So it’s back to reality, back to being strict with myself and back to the gym.
I think one of the most difficult things about gaining 3 lbs for me was the thought that I have wasted 3 weeks. That I’m not back to where I was three weeks and all those days of doing well are just gone. I mean really I know that this is such a first world white girl issue but this is my blog and my issue and I’m going to moan about it. When I first walked though the doors of the meeting I was almost at my heaviest. I was tired of deluding myself that I wasn’t that fat and most importantly that I was eating healthy so there must be a physical problem. Taking the step to start attending a slimming group is admitting to myself that I was overweight– grossly so and that I needed to make some changed and I couldn’t do it on my own.
I don’t want to be faffing about with it. I want to reach my goal in the year I set myself and that is not going to happen if I don’t stick with the program. So although those damn Mars bars are still calling me from Squidge’s Halloween bag I am sticking w/ the points. It’s not to say I haven’t had a Mars bar but the good thing about Weight Watcher’s is that you can have a Mars bar if you plan for it, so I have.
Here is a picture of me at my heaviest– when Squidge was 6 months old. I cringe when I look at it but I know I’ll never be that person again.
this is a bad picture of me taken a couple of weeks ago. So not slim but not as big as I was almost 5 yrs ago.